Saturday, December 10, 2016


I can't believe how far I've gone. I'm not sure if it's good or bad. People say, you are under no obligation to be the person you were a year ago, heck even 5 minutes ago. Somehow, there's a feeling inside of me saying I was better back then. At least I think I was.

I was comfortable in my safe space and have no problem with pushing the boundaries at the same time. Growing to know more, experience more; it makes you more of a person. But I feel like I'm damaging myself more, or I simply can't handle living a life in the fast lane.

Crisis and scars are supposed to make you tougher. I tell myself that everyday. But still, I miss the old me. The innocent Aizat who was so afraid to break the rules and definitely not a sassy bitch. I dare to say that I climb up to high that I'm forgetting my ground.

I choose to see nothing is wrong with that. Nothing is wrong with exploring and trying new things. If it didn't turn out right, I'm just on the high road.

I think I've grown so far because I have scars all over. Heck I'm just 25 and about to turn 26 in a few month and I'm all bruised. Holyshit I'm scared. If I think I've been through enough that I'm a wise man, I should think again.

Would I be afraid of changes? Yes.
Should I be afraid of changes? No.
How many time should I change?
How far do I adapt?

All these changes makes me forget who I really am.
I'm lost. It's time to go home.

Yeay, esok balik Ipoh.

1 comment:

Hanis Amanina said...

All those crisis and scars developed myself into a different person. But, shall I say, I love myself? Hihi. Haha despite so many things I am flawed but I thin I should be grateful with how I've grown till now.

Still, agree to keep remembering our root. :)

Take care, Aizat!


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